Hello, it’s been awhile! I’ve been thinking about how to write this post for a while now and I’ve been a little (ok, a lot) stumped. Should I just jump back into writing blog posts, like I haven’t been MIA for five months, or should I explain why I took the time off? Ultimately, I decided to do the latter. I named this blog Truly, Tamara because I wanted this to be a space where I could share my authentic self and hopefully encourage others to do the same. If I didn’t explain my absence I wouldn’t be living up to that.
Blogging is hard. I don’t mean the actual act of blogging (although that’s not super easy either), I mean the self inflicted pressure it put on me to be perfect (or at least appear perfect). Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying I ever did appear perfect. In fact I know I was far from it, and that was the problem. I would constantly look at other blogs and Instagram feeds and I’m ashamed to say, would get caught up in the ugly comparison trap. I didn’t feel like I was ever going to live up to all of those other beautiful blogs I would read and it was really effecting me in a bad way. I was having a hard time being happy for other people’s success, because I was jealous of what they had and what I thought I would never live up to. It’s shameful, I know, but I just couldn’t shake it! I hated feeling that way and it was taking the joy out of blogging and creating away from me. So after seeking advice, I decided to take some time off to get myself together and figure out if this is something that truly makes me happy. And you know what? I missed it. I missed the creative outlet it gives me and the community that it can provide. I just needed to take a step back and figure out what I wanted my focus to be and why I was doing it.
So here I am, basically starting over. The primary focus will still be on personal style, because that’s what I love and what allows me to express myself creatively, but I want it to be about more than that. I’ve come a long way and learned a lot in the last five months, but I still have a long way to go. I don’t have it all figured out yet, I just know that I want this to be a safe space to talk about the good, the bad, and the ugly. A space to talk about successes and struggles, a place where I can be my true self and be honest when I don’t have it all together. I hope you will be a part of that too. I hope we can create a community to share, support and celebrate each other. And most importantly, love each other in spite of our brokenness.
*Photos taken by Aaron, edited by me
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