Brave. I feel like it is a word I have been reading and hearing a lot lately (insert Sara Bareilles song here). I don’t know if being brave is just a popular and trendy subject matter right now, or if I am just noticing it because it’s something I’ve needed to hear. Either way, I think it is something worth talking about, for me anyway. But I can’t help thinking that this is true for women and girls in general. As much as I hate to admit it, I have always been a fearful person. It’s one of the things I dislike most about myself and that I still battle daily. Combine that with my perfectionist tendency’s and well, it’s a wonder I even get out of bed in the morning. Ok, maybe that’s a little dramatic, but I have a real fear of failure and I don’t know where it comes from. I mean, I come from a super loving family who supported anything I ever wanted to do. Maybe it’s society and it’s lower expectations for girls in general (although, thank goodness that is changing). Whatever the reason, over the years that fear has kept me from doing so many things, and If I think about it too much it makes me really sad. From the time I was 7 or 8 years old until I was a young adult, I rode horses and competed in horse shows. I loved horses (and still do) and had such a passion for riding, but I quit and threw it all away because of my fears. I know you aren’t supposed to have regrets and that things happen for a reason, but I can’t help but regret that. Even as an adult my fears have kept me from doing many things, because of them I almost didn’t even start this blog. I have been reading blogs for years and I have loved fashion since I can remember. For the last two years I have had this voice in my head telling me that I should be writing a personal style blog, and expressing myself creatively, but I didn’t listen (until 2 months ago). I was way too caught up in the thoughts in my head about what could go wrong. What if my blog doesn’t look creative or professional enough? What if I don’t have anything worthwhile to say? What if my pictures aren’t good enough? What if I’m too old? What if everyone hates it? What if I am not good enough? And that’s really just it, I was so scared that I wasn’t good enough and I hadn’t even tried! How stupid is that?! But I do that all the time, I talk myself out of things before I even try. Well, I’m sick of it and I’m not going to stand for it anymore! So starting this blog is the first step in the right direction. I am going to be brave and create something no matter how imperfect it may be. I am going to put myself out there and give myself the chance to fail, because at least that means I tried. To most of you, I’m sure it seems like no big deal to start a blog, but this is a huge leap for me and I’m so glad I took it. I have already been blessed in many ways and I hope that I can encourage anyone out there who want’s to take a leap (doing whatever their heart desires) to just jump. You can do so much more than you give yourself credit for and it’s not so scary once you do. Who knows, I might just start riding horses again too ;).
I bought this t-shirt from Zooey Magazine back in the winter when they were promoting their Brave Movement to help inspire women to go for their dreams. It’s a simple shirt with a powerful message, so when I decided to write this blog post I knew exactly what to wear. I styled it with this pencil skirt from Old Navy that I featured in my Wednesday’s Love List a few weeks ago. I must admit that for me, wearing a pencil skirt is kind of an act of bravery in itself since I have… ahem……a little junk in the trunk as they say ;). It’s not a silhouette that I normally wear, but I love it! I’m so glad that I took the chance and bought it. It is a nice thick material that provides a lot of stretch and sits high on your waist. I’m looking forward to styling it many different ways.
I know this post was kind of a long one, so if you hung in there, thank you. Do you deal with fear? If so, what are some ways you overcome that fear? I would love to hear your story. I still have a long way to go.
*Photos taken by Aaron, edited by me